Am feeling such a wonderful energy today, feeling like a new beginning, excitement in the air , maybe is just the sunny day, maybe just the planets alligned , maybe i just relised that finally I must move forward, feeling the positive vibes that many people had sent to me.
Feeling energised , gratitude to the many people that inspires me so so much, the heroes of my journey. How this journey unfolded for me, the journey into embracing the sensual touch with a bit of spirituality. In my longest relationship me and my partner , both unexperienced we did not know how to communicate our most deep needs, had children and were focused on the family life, but grew more and more apart.
My soul was aching because i could not understand why my partner wasn't there for me, why intimacy felt so unfulfilling, why there was so little physical touch, why making love was just a quick unsatisfying release and not a deep connection.
I was going through a terrible internal crises and wanted an open relationship as a solution to my suffering. We were not prepared for an open relationship, mentally nor emotionally, so our relationship crumbled. Intimacy in my life was so essential for me, I read so many books on improving relationships but my partner was not giving the same importance, energy and focus I was giving to it. Long story short, I went back to what i though was something that I loved doing and that was massage.
I love many things, I love cooking, and love feeding people, I love sitting with friends in a small kitchen , chatting , drinking herbal teas and cooking curries , pizzas, soups and laughing at silly things-my grandmother's kitchen was always filled with people , people going ,people coming, as soon as you crossed the door step you were instantly half full with pastries, polenta, rice dishes, borch, and I love carrying on the tradition.
