People who seemed to be irreplacable characters have left, slowly being replaced by completely different persons in my life. My storyline has experienced many unexpected voltas, and I have come to terms with the fact that there will be many still to come.
While most things become easier the more often you experience them, I've learned that farewells only seem to become harder over time. Those never get easier, especially when it comes to saying goodbye to your relationship. Every break-up I have experienced - good or bad - has always been painful. I have always left a piece of myself with that person. After any break-up I needed time to mourn; not only for the end of the relationship I had with a person I once loved so dearly, but also for the part of myself that would forever be lost.
However, I have learned that this lost love and part of me, would be a necessary step to something much more important: growth. I have always been a person who loves hard and intense. Loyalty, committment and dedication: those things just come naturally to me.
I need to fully commit to someone, or not at all. My friends used to joke that there were two types of people in the world: Always-single and always-in-a-relationship type of people: and I was by far the latter. Casual flings just did not exist in my universe. I was only interested in the real love deal.
I would get such a rush from loving and being loved. In some way, this made me very prone to going too fast in relationships. Once I took a chance on a person, I went all in - even if I did not know the person well enough to give him my all. Thinking everything would work out between us, even though I still had many layers of differences to discover - that girl was me.
